Dublin has become a bit of a winter wonderland as of late. Unfortunately, I've been sick in bed for the past few days so I didn't really get a chance to play in the snow.
The boy was scoring our first year rep on Tuesday. Surprise sur-fucking-prise.
I'm completely SWAMPED with work at the moment so it's probably a good thing I'm single again. It's kinda strange, because I'm never single, I always have someone.. Fair enough, the boy was just there to help pick up the pieces Mark left shattered on the ground behind,him, but Bren was lovely and I feel like a total idiot for trusting him. Let's face it, I'm not exactly heartbroken here. I expected him to run off with someone else and that's exactly what he did. It's feels so strange though, will I ever have that "perfect" feeling I had with Mark again or will I just continue to settle for men I don't particularly care about because they're there and they have no hope of hurting me like he did? People seem to dedicate their lives looking or that perfect relationship, and seemingly I had it, and we threw it away. I know Mark and I weren't perfect, but we were pretty close and I wonder should I let myself get that attached to someone again? Overall was it worth it?
Looking back on the horrible, painstakingly heartbreak he caused me, I really don't think it was. That said, if he called me tomorrow, I'd jump back in his arms. I guess for now I best start focusing on college. Bury myself in work and all that jazz...
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